Just a few scattered thoughts from the last few months....
It's been a crazy few months, let me just say that.
I've been busy with school, finishing off my last few assignments before I walk across that stage accepting my degree...that thing that shows I've written a lot of papers, and read a ton of books, and still have a lot of learning to do.
Jason has been leading at a church over the border in Bellingham, just filling a need for a few weeks and it's been so fun serving with him on the team, singing alongside him. It's such a cool thing, being able to lead others in worship with my husband by my side. It's been a dream since I was a little girl, and it's officially come true! We're still keeping our eyes open for the right fit, for a church to make our own, and for Jason to work in full time as the worship pastor. It's quite the process, yet God has opened some neat doors for us these last few months that have given us a better idea of what we are looking for.
I've been struggling to feel at home lately. Mainly because our time in this cute little condo is coming to a close sooner than later. I'll be graduating soon, which means there's no job or school keeping us here in Abbotsford. It's exciting to look for new places to live, but it's frustrating when you're not sure where you are moving yet. So that's been quite a new thing to experience. I've noticed my obsessive cleaning and organizing has gotten a bit lax, knowing I'll just be putting everything in boxes, yes....sooner or later. It's something I never thought I would even do, stretch out my cleaning tasks longer than a week....;)
I've been very reflective lately, wanting to sit down and blog, yet books reviews, theological papers, and making dinners have become the priority. I've missed writing. I've missed pouring out my thoughts, hoping I can be an encouragement to someone, somewhere, helping them know that someone else on this crazy earth understands. It's my deepest desire. It's my greatest hope for The Beautiful Truth. To be the voice telling others that THEY ARE UNDERSTOOD. That's what we all want isn't it? When it comes to arguments with my husband and I, half the time they are because one of us isn't feeling heard, nor understood. When one of us takes a moment to just listen, and understand, the resolving begins, and it's beautiful.
God has been doing some neat things in my heart lately as well. For a while, I was struggling to wak up in the morning and spend time with the Lord while I eat breakfast. I was afraid of becoming legalistic, not doing anything else before spending time in God's word. Yet, I was forgetting that God does call me to be obedient for a reason. He calls me to take time in my days, and just BE with him. So, I threw away my fears and lies I was believing, and spent time with God. So, everyday during the week, I wake up and get ready like every other woman on this earth. Then, I pour my favorite cereal, and sit down to chat with God. Or really, read through His word. And it's beautiful. I've been reading through Acts and am blown away every morning by what the disciples have done before the rest of us. The lives taken, for God's truth, is incredible. What an inspiration these men and women were that LIVED their faith out in a time that wasn't like today. Wow. I'm blown away.
God is real. Seriously.
I was at the Hillsong United Aftermath concert last week and was so blessed to worship in an arena with thousands of other believers.
God is real.
He is moving in my life.
He is holding my hand every moment of every struggle. And I have many.
I get it. I understand what it's like to be afraid.
To feel alone.
To feel empty.
To feel scared.
To wonder what's going to happen in the future.
To have things from the past overwhelm you with fear, regret.
I get it.
And so does God.
He died on the cross, so that we could be FREE FROM THESE THINGS.
Some mornings I wake up feeling the weight of the world on my back. I am filled with fears. I am reminded of my insecurities. I worry that I'm not doing enough for every woman out there looking in the mirror and hating what they see. I fear that my insecurities will bombard my mind, and cripple me. I worry that something is going to happen to my precious little brother, entering the world of temptations, rejection, battles. I am longing to be closer to my family, just so I can get a hug from my Mom, she's my best friend, and I miss calling her up to make a run to the mall just because. I miss sitting up for hours talking to my Dad, he's just about my biggest fan....always so interested in hearing what I've been up to. I mean he laughs at every joke, jokes that even Jason looks at me with a smirk, wondering where on earth I would come up with that....which does fill me with joy anyway. I have days where I wake up just wanting to stay in bed, and sleep the day away with Jason by my side because then we don't have to make hard decisions, we don't have to do anything but just be. It's beautiful to have him there with me everyday. Yet, I still cannot live without God by my side. I cannot look in the mirror and feel beautiful without God wispering that truth into my heart. It's a beautiful reality I have come to know, and understand deeply.
These lyrics bring such hope and peace into my heart each time I hear them. They are on the new Hillsong United Aftermath cd. Incredible. Soak in this truth today.
And I know, your with me
And I know your with me here
And I know your love with light the way
And I know your with me
Yes I know your with me here
And I know your love with light the way.
May these random thoughts fill you in on what's been going on lately with the Cavanaugh's, or may it fill with you peace in knowing that someone understands.
Britt
It's been a crazy few months, let me just say that.
I've been busy with school, finishing off my last few assignments before I walk across that stage accepting my degree...that thing that shows I've written a lot of papers, and read a ton of books, and still have a lot of learning to do.
Jason has been leading at a church over the border in Bellingham, just filling a need for a few weeks and it's been so fun serving with him on the team, singing alongside him. It's such a cool thing, being able to lead others in worship with my husband by my side. It's been a dream since I was a little girl, and it's officially come true! We're still keeping our eyes open for the right fit, for a church to make our own, and for Jason to work in full time as the worship pastor. It's quite the process, yet God has opened some neat doors for us these last few months that have given us a better idea of what we are looking for.
I've been struggling to feel at home lately. Mainly because our time in this cute little condo is coming to a close sooner than later. I'll be graduating soon, which means there's no job or school keeping us here in Abbotsford. It's exciting to look for new places to live, but it's frustrating when you're not sure where you are moving yet. So that's been quite a new thing to experience. I've noticed my obsessive cleaning and organizing has gotten a bit lax, knowing I'll just be putting everything in boxes, yes....sooner or later. It's something I never thought I would even do, stretch out my cleaning tasks longer than a week....;)
I've been very reflective lately, wanting to sit down and blog, yet books reviews, theological papers, and making dinners have become the priority. I've missed writing. I've missed pouring out my thoughts, hoping I can be an encouragement to someone, somewhere, helping them know that someone else on this crazy earth understands. It's my deepest desire. It's my greatest hope for The Beautiful Truth. To be the voice telling others that THEY ARE UNDERSTOOD. That's what we all want isn't it? When it comes to arguments with my husband and I, half the time they are because one of us isn't feeling heard, nor understood. When one of us takes a moment to just listen, and understand, the resolving begins, and it's beautiful.
God has been doing some neat things in my heart lately as well. For a while, I was struggling to wak up in the morning and spend time with the Lord while I eat breakfast. I was afraid of becoming legalistic, not doing anything else before spending time in God's word. Yet, I was forgetting that God does call me to be obedient for a reason. He calls me to take time in my days, and just BE with him. So, I threw away my fears and lies I was believing, and spent time with God. So, everyday during the week, I wake up and get ready like every other woman on this earth. Then, I pour my favorite cereal, and sit down to chat with God. Or really, read through His word. And it's beautiful. I've been reading through Acts and am blown away every morning by what the disciples have done before the rest of us. The lives taken, for God's truth, is incredible. What an inspiration these men and women were that LIVED their faith out in a time that wasn't like today. Wow. I'm blown away.
God is real. Seriously.
I was at the Hillsong United Aftermath concert last week and was so blessed to worship in an arena with thousands of other believers.
God is real.
He is moving in my life.
He is holding my hand every moment of every struggle. And I have many.
I get it. I understand what it's like to be afraid.
To feel alone.
To feel empty.
To feel scared.
To wonder what's going to happen in the future.
To have things from the past overwhelm you with fear, regret.
I get it.
And so does God.
He died on the cross, so that we could be FREE FROM THESE THINGS.
Some mornings I wake up feeling the weight of the world on my back. I am filled with fears. I am reminded of my insecurities. I worry that I'm not doing enough for every woman out there looking in the mirror and hating what they see. I fear that my insecurities will bombard my mind, and cripple me. I worry that something is going to happen to my precious little brother, entering the world of temptations, rejection, battles. I am longing to be closer to my family, just so I can get a hug from my Mom, she's my best friend, and I miss calling her up to make a run to the mall just because. I miss sitting up for hours talking to my Dad, he's just about my biggest fan....always so interested in hearing what I've been up to. I mean he laughs at every joke, jokes that even Jason looks at me with a smirk, wondering where on earth I would come up with that....which does fill me with joy anyway. I have days where I wake up just wanting to stay in bed, and sleep the day away with Jason by my side because then we don't have to make hard decisions, we don't have to do anything but just be. It's beautiful to have him there with me everyday. Yet, I still cannot live without God by my side. I cannot look in the mirror and feel beautiful without God wispering that truth into my heart. It's a beautiful reality I have come to know, and understand deeply.
These lyrics bring such hope and peace into my heart each time I hear them. They are on the new Hillsong United Aftermath cd. Incredible. Soak in this truth today.
And I know, your with me
And I know your with me here
And I know your love with light the way
And I know your with me
Yes I know your with me here
And I know your love with light the way.
May these random thoughts fill you in on what's been going on lately with the Cavanaugh's, or may it fill with you peace in knowing that someone understands.
Britt
