Life. Thoughts. and CoCo.

Once again, I'm sitting here on the laptop listening to some sweet new acoustic music that puts me in a deep thinking mood and I should MOST DEFINATLEY be in bed. But this past summer has been a new experience for me in a life that I have always lived in. Being home has been so awesome and I wouldn't change it. But I have began to see the difference between who I am here and at school. Here, being on the west coast surrounded by the "you gotta be 100lbs, tan, hot hot and hotter" kinda life style. And basically, I struggle with this and always will. I absolutely love working out and running...LOVE the burn and the way I feel afterwards. But I'm realizing that no matter how healthy I eat and how often I work out, I'm not gonna be a tiny 100lb girl. I am learning to accept myself and love the skin I am in. It's been such a tough summer with this area but I take each day as a new day and strive to love myself. But the thing I don't understand, in why do I feel this way when I want to get out there and preach to allllll the girls in this world about self image. I want to say to each and every one of them that they are beautiful and created perfectly. But I don't always believe that about myself. Does't that seem a little hypocritical to you? I sure think so...so I pray that the Lord will continue to work in my life and strengthen me in a way that I am able to speak truth from my own life as well at the Lord's. The devil knows where he can bring me down and I'm trying my hardest to fight him off...stupid stupid. But as for a happy note. I am loving the strength that I have developed over the last few years. I am seeing how God is becoming the leader of my life completely and guiding me through everything. THank you Lord! I look forward to seeing how he brings me through these trials and what he does with my life in the future. I look forward to seeing who he brings into my life and how he will use them in my life as well. I look forward to meeting the one I will marry EVENTUALLY. I look forward to singing and singing and singing...and sharing the word of Jesus Christ and the love he has for ALL:-) Share with my your thoughts:-)